I just finished listening to an amazing teaching by Bill Johnson on the subject of Holiness, it really fanned a flame that was already growing inside of me regarding the subject of holiness.
Over the summer, and anytime I’m not in a solid routine, it’s SO easy for me to at times forget about my relationship with God; to just let it slip by and focus on all my other friendships…. it’s pretty dumb of me; actually, cause God is really the only one who can carry everything..all my cares and worries, all my desires and needs, and yet SO many times I try to entrust these things to my friends around me, thinking that they’re capable of helping me through them. But in reality, ALL OF THEM put together wouldn’t compare to what God can & will do for me, it doesn’t compare to the fact that HE’S the only one who can carry me through difficult and overwhelming times.
Last night, lots of frustration had built up inside of me, and I needed to release it, I found myself texting a few of my best friends venting to them about my frustrations, and in the back of my mind, I kept feeling that I needed to just open my journal and bible and talk to God about it, did I? No…i just kept venting away to my friend…. all that to say..it did help in getting me back on the right track, getting my heart back in the right place, but not NEARLY as much as it would’ve if I had just talked to God…and I know that for a fact.
So many times it’s easy to forget that I can talk to Him anytime, anywhere, and so I forget..simply because He’s invisible, but I’m determined that from now on, I CAN’T let that be an obstacle to me talking to him and casting my cares on Him.
This morning in worship time at school, I finally took some time to let Him speak & pour His love on me, and it was then and only then that I felt my frustrations and concerns FULLY lift off of me, cause I decided to cast them on Him.
Now you ask, what does all this have to do with pursuing holiness? ….I don’t really know..but hopefully it’ll come together by the end of this post…seeing as I’m just purely typing out my thoughts. :)
Something I’ve realized lately is how much I let myself be consumed by media…music, news, people.com, all the gossip on facebook, etc. and I’m constantly convicted at how much time I’m wasting doing that..when I could be doing things that change the world, things that will last for eternity, deepening my relationship with God even more, etc.
Yeah, you could say I’m kinda strict on what I listen to and watch, but man, I have a long way to go.
Bill Johnson said something in his message that caught my eye, he said: “Holiness is the beauty of God’s nature shown through a person. Pursuing holiness shouldn’t be a “every sunday routine” it should be something that you’re constantly working on and doing, pursuing the beauty and nature of God to be shown THROUGH you.”
I realized that if I want God to fully show through me, if I’m determined to pursue holiness as the bible says I should do, I need to cut out alot of things in my life that don’t line up with that. Things that distract me from that.
I love that God’s helping my desire grow to spend time loving on him, to spend time worshipping him and soaking in His presence and just purely listening to Him, but there’s SO many areas that I still want to grow in so much, and I guess this message was just that slap in the butt that I needed.
My desire is SO strong to pursue the things of Him, to surround myself with people who feel the same way, to help others join the pursuit, but it all starts with me…and the inside of me.
I’m determined to let God cut the things away on me that are not of Him, that are not in the pursuit of holiness. Will I stumble and make mistakes? Of course. But you know what’s cool? Before God chose me, he factored in all my mistakes, and then He STILL chose me. and that, is a such a blessing and reassurance to have.